Thursday, July 16, 2009

I have not disappeared of the face of the earth.

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I have not disappeared of the face of this earth, but I will tell you that I came very close once again. June the 8th, 2009 I found myself back in icu, after having spent since October 2008 waking up looking like the first photo in this picture composition.
Passing five kidney stones, in severe pain without medicine to reduce it...and 4 months of hell, finally a ct scan was ordered, the ct scan revealed, a golf ball sized septated cyst, on my right kidney, and a ademona on my left adrenal gland which further tested positive for cushings syndrome on May the 24th, 2009.
My bodies organs are all in failure, while I await to be tranferred out of here for medical care.
I honestly believe that the reason I am still alive is because of my faith in God.
Christmas Eve, around five oclock, I looked at my two boys and told them I am sorry, momma is not going to be able to give you christmas again this year and crawled in my bed, in my bed, I cried in pain and prayed to God, please take my life right here right now..or help my doctors find out what is wrong with me. My prayers were answered January the 7th, 2009.
But by the grace of God go I.
I have been undiagnoised with this dreadful illness..for 33 years, and worst is...there was testing done in my mid 20s when I was without my periods for 4 years and lost the hair on my head, that indicated back then I had this disease and should be checked further for it..but it was filed away and never done.
If I ever needed friendship in my life and understanding, It is now.
This is twice I have been on deaths door since my son was born.
I so look forward to having my life back
if you would like to learn more about this aweful disease feel free to check out the place I have found that offers so much valuable information and support.
Thank you for your understanding and patience.


bookyeti said...

I am so sorry you have to go through all of this - no one should. I am just glad you finally have an answer to what has been causing all of this, and that you can finally regain a measure of health after all you've been through.

Also, I want to thank you for your kind thoughts on my Cushing's blog as I struggle for answers and a diagnosis. It meant a lot.


Michele said...

You poor thing! I had stopped by your blog in the past for freebies but hadn't checked lately because of your long absence, today I decided to clean out my favorites and thought I'd check your blog once more. Hope you are feeling better!

VJ's Scrap Room said...

So glad you found out what is causing the problem.Not knowing is sometimes worse than knowing.KWIM?
At least now there may be some relief??

My prayers are with you!


Deb said...

I'm so sorry you have not been well, I hope you can figure out how to get back to feeling better and stop missing out on those special memories with your family. Hang in there!