I have not posted for such a very long time, but Im still here..but very sick..Im struggling to stay alive..I have cysts on my kidneys, every lymph in my body is swollen, I have tumors on my adrenal glands, and most likely a tumor on my pit gland, as my ctscan shows an enlarged pit gland, I have been almost 3 years, struggling to get diagnosied and treated for cushing syndrome..you can learn more about cushing syndrome here. if not for this wonderful group and a women who cared enough about others and women that support each other, I most likely would have died by now. Rural Canada, it is very hard to get diagnosied and treated for anything rare and even harder if it effects your brain..you get labeled and you cannot get past being labeled for serious much needed investigations to take place..most people die and end up being a statistic...thank you for any of you..that pray for me..and I hope one day to share some nice freebies again...thank you for prayers..please start a prayer chain for me..God has been holding my hand through this..I know..he do answer the prayers of many..
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Monday, September 28, 2009
Its been a long year since I developed this pain in my side..since the 14th of October to be exact...
I have had at least 6 trips via ambulance, to the emergency department, over 9 appointments with my doctor, and nine more with my nurse practitioner...spent since then on the antibiotic cipro..which up until January..would take the pain away and control it..with it two days of coming off it..poof the pain was back.. since January..it no longer controls the pain, but takes the evening fever away..but I still suffer from the evening chills..I do have my mothers electric blanket, which cuddles me at night in more ways then one..
Finally August the 27th, I had a urgent ct scan done..which..revealed swollen lymph nodes in the right groin..that compared to the scan I had done in January..had grown some..it also revealed another ademona..over on my right adrenal gland which had not grown compared to Januarys scan..both of these things were not on the results of Januarys scan, the lymph nodes or..the right ademona....so cant help but wonder what happened there..and why..
all I do know..is that a dog ..would not be left to suffer as much pain as I have suffered this past year..as human beings we would have more compassion...then to allow someone to suffer..like that..
Which seriously makes me wonder..about what I will say is my doctor..to be polite..
Rural Canadian medicine is a challenge if you are poor..travelling to another hospital is very expensive..and without a referal..you are just not going to get a second unbiased opinion of any kind..our barb wired frence is our poverty...in pain an suffering..you cannot leave..
Now..with this second ctscan..its urgent..I have biopsies done..and will be sent away from my family..my friends and support circle..and left alone in a world I do not know to face one of the scariest health concerns, on my own..do I have cancer..or is this some weird infection..
I do miss sharing better things..scrapping..and lots in life..and hope and pray..for a good outcome..in the days ahead..
How I have lasted so long..one look at the smile of my beloved son...is all any mom needs to face another day of pain..if it were not for him and my loving husband..who is a saint..I would have given up long ago..
Thank you for visiting me..and for those that send prayers..thank you too...
I am sure..God has purpose in all he does..God Bless...Joanne
Posted by Joanne at 5:06 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Thank you to scrapbrat for the lovely award of this blog has heart, you can visit her blog here. Thank you.
I humbly accept this award, from her, I am supposed to pass this award along, I cannot choose any one person to pass this on to, there are to many people in my world that are so deserving of it who do not openly express themselves as I can. In my heart, I felt the best person I could pass this award unto is someone who is no longer with us, but who had such a great influence on my heart when I first discovered him. The first book I read by him was Living, Loving and Learning.
A particular story comes to mind, from that book, a little johnny story.
Little Johnny, was in art class one day, and the teacher was showing the students how to draw a tree. She drew on the black board a trunk and colored it brown and a cloud like top which she colored green. She looked to the students and said now boys and girls, draw a tree. The children took out the crayons and got busy drawing there trees, while the teacher went up and down the isles viewing there progress, stopping and helping where she could, until she got to little Johnny, little Johnny was busy, with colors of purple, red, yellow, green swirling them over his paper. She looked and said to him, that's not a tree I asked you to draw a tree. To Johnny that was a tree with all the beautiful colors he had seen in trees in one beautiful place, on his paper, what that teacher forgot was..to tell her students to draw my tree!
Being yourself is a very difficult thing in a world that teaches us and expects us to do and be like the majority. So I would like to pass this award along to Leo Buscaglia, who is no longer with us in this world, whose lectures, books, videos are still here for us to be inspired from and to share.
My heart part of me is because of part of him, when I was looking, for things in life I was not even sure of what it was..in reading his books, listening to his lectures, that who I am now became to be, In a world where many question if speaking from our hearts is professional, I have only to think..if it was not why would the people who share from their hearts (such as the chicken soup books) make so much money doing so ..if somewhere underneath we were not all longing to hear..the realities of living, loving and learning and know that we are a doing okay.
I wish you all peace, joy, happiness, love..enough food to not be hungry, warmth from the cold and food for the soul. I will be back again with Christmas Goodies, I have been pretty sick since the 3rd of October and awaiting a cat scan to confirm what is going wrong, which may be kidney stones. The medical care system is slow..and I am still waiting and that is on a urgent consult, but I am hanging in there..even though there are days..when I feel like biting a towel, the greatest gift a person can have is there health..without it..you are almost powerless to change anything in your life and I am grateful I still have health of mind, for those not so fortunate in life to have health of mind and body..they depend on you, your heart, your kindness to ensure that those that will abuse the weak , and feeble to defend them and ensure they are cared for with dignity, I hope each of you finds someone special to care for in your life's this Christmas..
and all year long, it is only through our hands and hearts will we change this world and make it a better place for our children.
Please enjoy the video!
You can open up another page and continue browsing and making your rounds as you listen to it. My wish is that it will be ScrapSoup for your heart....love, Joanne
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
A Special Thank You To:
Christy Haig-DigiScrapWarehouse.com-(cd-template modified-Oct)
Gypsy Chick (Jodie Patterson)-ScrapArtist.com - http://thegypsychick.blogspot.com/ - http://www.gypsychick.net/
JulieO-stoneaccentsstudio.com(Lovely Dried Roses-May
Nicole Viars-digiscrapwarehouse.com(stacked Papers-Feb Dotted overlay used on my cardboard torn star)
Kimberly Wresh-Mrs. Wresh Designs-scrapbook-elements.com-thedigichick.com-mrswresh.blogspot.com(frame-Aug)
Misty Cato-(Plastic Style-April Elements)sweetshoppe designs
Atomic Cupcake-http://www.atomiccupcake.com/-(Gems used for Brads-Dec-March-May-June-Sept)
Cyndi Wetmiller-Wetfish Designs-Divine Digital-www.wetfishscraps.blogspot.com-(FishHooks-June and Feb Button June)
Kim Broedelet-Kimb's designs-http://digital-scrapbooking.org-(Paper Tears-Aug)
Michelle Boroni-http://studiostyledesigns.com (Sept Frame-modified-Sept)
Sweet Angel Scraps-http://sweetangelscraps.blogspot.com/-(Ribbon on Frame Sept)
ScrapGirls-Melissa Renfro-Dynamic Brushes(stitching)Edge It Action
CREATIVE VICTORIAN DESIGNS-http://scrap-n-tag.com-http://creativevictorian.com/boutique/Metal Wire Style-Jan
Everything Else From Art Trails-www.dustybear.com
I have done my best to make sure I have properly read all tou..and properly credited all individuals..if I have made an error it would be an honest mistake and not intentional...many of the designers listed do not require credit..but I have tried to credit them all as a show case of some of the many talented designers out there..!
All For the Love of Sam...As God made Him..in his image too!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Sweet Orange Blitz Cd Album (10 Pgs)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sorry for my absence in blogging..real life...things needed my attention..